falling asleep on couches in corners of alleys and in boxes on dance floors
love notes
written in secret
kept in back pockets
the folds almost falling apart
it's been read more than a child's first porno magazine
dance floors seething with people
fit to burst
feel the sweat and the heat
the lights swirl and spaz
like a crazy injection
lets hallucinate
text messages in the saved folder
fingers aching again
29
FROM: 403-###-####
msg: cuz i like u
3:53pm SEP-28th-06
watch as we fall faster than anyone else
lets jump
brace yourself
it'll fail
but it'll be fun
i promise you.
diet love.
w(ake me up im fast asleep)ont stop.
Hollywood Blvd. is a war zone
it took a long time for you to miss me
but now it's coming in waves
hot flashes
wake up one morning and i was gone
i'm surprised that you even remember me
through stories and gossip i hear you're throwing(up)your life away
nothing's new
in&out.
to be honest i've been so wrapped up in getting out of drinking situations that i've forgotten about yours.
my only words anymore:
spaztic youth.i'm not joking around.
new page
new topic
new myspace comments
falling over and over again
it's not just the bass
it's the blush
the smile
the denial
all arrows point to...
i'm in way over my head once again.
new page
new topic
new life
YOU'D DO THE SAME
Spaztic Youthit's loudit's
obnoxiousit's having
smart opinions and voicing them
it's playing your shit on the stereo because
you like itnot because your scene friend told you to
it's addiction
it's recoveryit's dedication
it's working 8-4 just to get money for what you really want
it's living off of burgers and diet cokeit's filthy
it's awful
it's tastelessit's one step above you it's a level most of you won't reachit's having your head screwed on right.
it's us.not you.
(laughter)
walk this shoreline with me and
watch as the moon lights up our faces
as the water laps softly at the shoreline
making love to the rocks
watch as my fingers tighten around yours and
my eyes crease in confusion
(guilt)
now watch as i push you into the ocean and
the waves snap angrily at your body for disturbing them
i'll stand by and smile
(chemical reaction)
maybe take a seat next to me
maybe take a deep breath
i've had it up to here
and it's about time i told you
but maybe my lips were sewed shut
or maybe my heart collapsed in on itself
because for some reason i can't get out what i'm trying to say
(beaten)
i've lost the human race
i've lost the shoreline
i've lost my sanity
hello static city
